Yesterday I went to London for the twice-annual Fountain Pen Show there. If you’re at all afflicted by love for pens, or ink, and even a selection of paper, washi tape, notebooks, notebook covers, stationery in general, it’s an intoxicating experience. That’s just as well, because a degree of intoxication will help deal with the idea of paying for these goods; if you’re the type to be satisfied with the stock at W. H. Smith (oops, I mean T. G. Jones, /eyeroll) (Holy smoke, I didn’t know that W H Smith owns Cult Pens, the very popular and highly-regarded pen dealers!) or Ryman’s (no shade on stationery shops for normies), why pay £7 to shop for more expensive, higher-quality merchandise? But a little giddiness in the name of beauty goes a long way toward explaining paying an admission fee to gaze longingly at £350 fountain pens. I didn’t look at the pricier ones.
I went with the expectation that I might untie my pursestrings for a more modest pen, but realised when I was trying to choose that I have more fountain pens than a sensible person could ever use, even if their job description were ‘Use as many of these fountain pens as you can’. They are magnificent, most of them, and a number are gifts or legacies, for which I give heartfelt thanks; they include several of my favourites, beginning with my late father’s Montblanc Meisterstück. But at a certain point, the irrationality started ringing bells: why use savings to buy yet another model of a pen of which I already have several, even if it’s beautiful and sparks joy? That’s awfully close to a legal form of cocaine high, and I’m glad to not feel the drive to obtain coke, or pens, no matter the cost, just to fill a coke- or pen-shaped vacancy in my soul.
None of which should give offence to true collectors. I love you; if I were a few inches closer to the line, I know I would have crossed it. I have the fascination with arcane knowledge, the strong collector’s impulse, a love of order and completeness. I saw a Sheaffer Connoisseur for £120, a German school pen for £40, a white Cross pen (don’t have any Cross pens, and I have a soft spot for white pens) for only #10, almost bought one… but I didn’t. I think I’m a post-collector. If I ever think I really want to add a pen to my life, I’ll sort through the pens I’ve hunted down and trade in three or four — noe from the gifts-and-legacies category, I have principles — for one pen that I crave.
In the meantime, I’ll focus on fixing, polishing, and using the pens at hand. I might hire myself, after all, to use as many as I can, and I want to be able to point to my experience on my c.v.
(Will add photos of LPS tomorrow, and will post today’s sermon, and perhaps delete this promissory note.)