Parker Duofold Centennial

The star (so far!) of the Dudley/Hefling collection, a Parker Duofold Centennial in Jade Green, with an italic nib, here inked with Diamine Meadow.
I am not a Parker guy in general — I respect most of their pens, but they typically don’t sing to me the way other pens do. This pen, though — it’s amazing. Gentle italic nib with a little bit of feedback, very handsome design, feels right in my hand, and the line variation works beautifully. This is what fine pens should be all about (and this Duofold Centennial is all about finesse).
A Parker Duofold Centennial fountain pen in Jade Green, with an italic nib, here inked with Diamine Meadow green ink.

Walk Two Miles In My Trainers

At least, that’s what I did this morning. I did run short bits, but my body didn’t want to; I’d get a twinge in my knee, or ankle, or the place where I tied my trainers too tight (before I un- and retied them about a half mile in). And I didn’t want to try to override my body’s feedback; if I’m going to mess my legs up, or fall, or something, it won’t be because I ignored the warning signs. I did cover my two miles, though, because I am that stubborn.
Then coffee and crumpets, a really good shower and church, then home with Margaret. I finished my read-through of Wrede’s ‘Biblische Kritik innerhalb des Theologischen Studium’ and sent off my notes to the translator. We watched the last two episodes of Amazon Prime’s Cross series (which impressed us very positively) and we’ll have an easy dinner here at home, and get some rest tonight.

Today was a good day at church. My colleague and I work well together, and we’re blessed with a wonderful congregation, and although we haven’t (by any means) ironed out all the wrinkles for filling in gaps and imagining what would happen if a real Rector were in place, our shared ministry going forward seems sturdy and promising. A good day.

Miles, Peace, and Advent

As I expected after yesterday’s good run, today my legs were heavy — slow to limber up, early to tire — but the run was fine, if slow. Hot breakfast this morning, coffee, cleaned up and set about drafting my response to John Dear’s The Gospel of Peace, for which I’m giving a response at an event hosted by the Council of Independent Colleges’ NetVUE (Network for Vocation in Undergraduate Education) Gathering on ‘Nonviolence and/as Vocation’. After that, I set to working on my presentation on the Advent Collects for a meeting of the Sodality of Mary winter Sodality Day. Good thing I have a day off, so I can get some work done….

Two Degrees, Two Miles

I had a very good run this morning — hardly any discomfort, and a good pace. Follow that with a cup of coffee (no fruit alas), shower, Morning Prayer at church, walk in to R&R to put something in my coffee while I work on my presentation, squeeze in a little productivity between parish mini-crises, then in to the New Testament seminar with Isaac Augustine Morales on the expression ‘those who call on the Name of the Lord’.

10°, Two Miles

Reasonably good pace for my morning run, then a cup of coffee and fruit while I read applications, cleaned up and went to church for Morning Prayer, caught the X3 to Oxford, deliberated over applications, ran some errands, came home, and resumed parish odds and ends.

Weary Blues

After Monday and Tuesday on the Church of England front, I’m pretty worn out. I’ll paste in some observations I posted on social media below. I ran yesterday with my knee support, and this morning with just bare muscle, ligament, and bone. Well, enclosed by skin. Gentle run yesterday, more straight-ahead today.

Before:
I have a fair number of friends here who don’t usually know or care much about the inside of Church of England, who may be wondering what I think about the Archbishop of Canterbury.
What I think is that covering up (even ‘soft-pedalling’ or ‘kicking into the long grass’) minor safeguarding failures is a sacking offence in many quarters. Lying about the timeline and extent of knowledge (if committed) is an aggravating circumstance.
There’s no excuse, no mitigation. The Church must handle his case as it would a minor cleric’s, and since no one can fire him, he must resign.
Fergus Butler-Gallie wrote the letter, and Bishop Helen-Ann Hartley of Newcastle spoke out (and brought the receipts when she was strong-armed). Integrity, clarity, and unwavering commitment to the pastoral care of all show who the leaders of the Church really are.

After:
So Archbishop Welby has resigned (eventually): am I happy now?
(a) I wasn’t in it for my personal satisfaction. I insisted that he follow the rules he set down, by which any church employee would have had to resign or be fired.
(b) So I’m not happy, because hundreds of young people have been abused and some apparently died, dozens or more clergy and other church staff have been complicit in covering up Smyth’s abuse, and many others have been sullied by association, partial knowledge, and popular assumptions.
(c) I’m not happy because nothing in this sorry saga has given anyone cause for joy, but only grief and a painful reminder of ways any of us could feel trapped into pathways that would shame us if discovered.
(d) I notoriously don’t have a theory of mind by which to intuit Justin Welby’s spiritual state, but reading his letter provides strong clues of ambivalence about how others have responded to a path he evidently thought was best. I would guess that he feels hard done by, mixed with some regret. I guess that I would, if I were in that situation.
(e) I’m not his confessor nor his judge.I have prayed for him as Archbishop every day and will continue so to do.
(f) Nothing — nothing — on earth balances scales for people who’ve had to live with abuse, or with the toxic knowledge of abuse. It’s our obligation to uncover, treat, disinfect wherever we can.
(g) I doubt many people would have believed that we’re really trying so long as he was Archbishop, however much good he did toward advancing toward that goal in every other case.
(h) I hope we can find an [arch]bishop with integrity and humility who will not shy away from this hard work.

I wish Justin Welby no ill. He has, and will for a long time have, a stain on his reputation, the basis for which only he (on earth) knows, and I can’t imagine how that feels. I also can’t imagine how it feels to be a Smyth survivor, an Iwerne survivor, or a Smyth-adjacent church leader who might have ring the alarm bell forty-plus years ago.

I tell my confirmation class (with regard to entering the church), and my marriage preparation class (with regard to joining two lives into one), that we can’t imagined how tightly our lives are interlocked with others, how many people our actions affect. This must be a hell of a way to find out. But survivors found out first, and no one was willing to pull the emergency brake. Sympathy isn’t ‘rivalrous’ entity that can only be parcelled out in small bits lest one run out; one can in principle have sympathy for all concerned. My sympathy goes first, and always, with the survivors (and, heaven help us, any who didn’t survive) — and on good days filled with grace, extends beyond them to the church that turned its back on them.

And After Three Days…

I’ll go back and fix the typos from Friday that are glaring at me from the editing window, but I want to catch up first.

Saturday morning I got my flu and COVID jabs (‘I’m giving the flu jab in your left arm because there’s an ‘l’ in ‘flu’, and the COVID jab in the right because there’s no ‘r’ in COVID’), then worked on some parish correspondence and homily-building. I noticed that a sermon from the past, a good one, provided the basis for a viable Remembrance Day homily. Then Kelvin, a friend of Nick Smith’s, came ’round to pick me up for a trip to Wolverhampton to see Bob Dylan’s renewed Rough and Rowdy Ways tour(!). I hadn’t seen Dylan since I caught his Street Legal tour in Augusta Maine in ’78, so this was quite a change indeed; he gave his all in the show, but at 83 that’s less ‘all’ than it was 46 years ago. The most striking aspect of the show was his decision to foreground the bluesy foundation of the songs he chose (all of Rough and Rowdy, with a few congenial selections from his back catalogue), beginning strictly at 7:30, ending at 9:00, no encore. He hasn’t been changing up the set list on this version of the tour, so we knew what to anticipate; I don’t know the album that well, though, so it illuminated the recent music in various ways. His always legendary gruff, somewhat indistinct vocals have not gotten clearer with time, alas, so that the live, improvisational changes he introduces in familiar lyrics went past me without registering. All in all, I was very thankful to catch him in the Black Country (thank you very much, Nick!), cos I’m sure I won’t see him again.

After a short night’s sleep, I scrambled to St Michael’s Sunday morning for the Remembrance Day service (Fr Paul conducted the town observance at St Helen’s), and then to catch some rest in the afternoon before preaching at St Helen’s for the evening Mass (to make up for missing the usual morning Mass so as to make room for the town memorial). All well.

I tweaked my knee Saturday morning, so I walked most of the two miles. Sunday I skipped, both to give my knee time to settle and to work on fine-tuning the homily. This morning I strapped the knee supporter on and ran my two satisfactorily, though my general tiredness (from weekend exertions and from the effects of the double vaccination) slowed me down. My arms have been very sore at the injection sites, but apart from that and the predictable tiredness, I’ve had no ill effects from the vaxes, and now I am able to repel infectious diseases before they reach me, so that’s good.

Friday of Fourth, ’24

Two heavy miles, cup of coffee, shower, Morning Prayer, working coffee with Margaret at R&R, lunch at Oriel, New Testament seminar this afternoon, then home for the weekend. Sunday’s homily has been resisting me, I have some marking to do, admissions preparation…

Thursday On My Mind

Two good miles (after a bit of a lie-in for me, woke at 6:30), coffee and fruit, cleaned up, then off to Morning Prayer, to Oxford for tutorials, then home again to work on Sunday’s homily.

Billionaires do not conduce to general economic health — so (and this has been said before) the ‘economics’ reporting *must* begin reporting on the state of the actual functional economy, excluding the giga-wealth of the plutocrats. If you want to understand why Trump can convince the US voters that they’re worse off than they were four years ago (stipulating racism and misogyny), compare the lot of the lower 75% of the economic populace.

Two Bad

Ran this morning, legs felt okay (especially as they warmed up), but my heart is heavy for reasons all will understand. Coffee, hot breakfast, Morning Prayer, mid-week Mass, staff meeting, then the afternoon to mark tutorial essays and breathe deeply.

I Still Need Her, I Still Feed Her

Yesterday morning I got up and ran my morning miles, a good run though nothing spectacular. The day was sepcial, though, since it was Margaret’s birthday. I had a cup of coffee, and fruit, before cleaning up and dressing for church, after which I joined in Morning Prayer and met Margaret at R&R for a birthday breakfast of porridge (for her). Afternoon Mass at Bridge House, then time to chat with the residents; it’s always a significant occasion, and I try to linger as long as they have time (they are often on a tight schedule of planned activities). Then we ate out at Ask Italian (which does a good job with vegetarians and gluten-free options), and Margaret had her favourite pudding (their Etna Sundae). We watched the last episode of the last season of The Umbrella Factory

This morning’s run was again good, not great. Coffee, fruit, shower, Morning Prayer, stop in the parish office with Jackie to check on developments, home to do a catena of minor administrative tasks (and you thought Tuesday wasn’t one of my work days!), my weekly telephone appointment, then work on tomorrow morning’s sermon.

East St Helen’s Twoodle-oo

Two adequate miles this morning, followed by coffee, fruit, crumpets, and a shower; the parish has only one service today, the All Saints Sunday service which will be the final service led by our Team Rector. Tomorrow will be a whole new world.