Business and Leisure

Good run this morning, despite a variety of transient pains and stiffnesses; fruit and coffee, then cleaned up and went to Morning Prayer, and now settled at R&R for public office hours.

Since the public isn’t flocking to consult me — can you imagine? — I’ll take a few minutes to vent and amplification of something from my post in response to Mark Clavier last week. At the end of that post, I noted that ‘[T]he single greatest impediment to clergy flourishing is the demand on their time. The church needs clergy who are not running at full speed fifty hours (plus) a week.’ That’s true and important, but I want to note that almost everyone in today’s neoliberal economy has been squeezed for productivity like a lemon wedge until there’s little left but macerated pulp and skin. You and I can identify a tranche of the population who haven’t been afflicted in this way — but even the privileged elite have swallowed the pernicious myth that unless work is exhausting you, making your life a woeful succession of frustration, desperation, and drudgery.

I wish I could turn up the volume on my shout of No! to this. Everyone ought to benefit from the leisure, the slack time, that insulates workers from the parching, fraying, abrasive effects of unrelenting demands to extract more from our lives, all to the profit of the unimaginably wealthy. Literally ‘unimaginable’: hardly anyone can imagine what it would mean to have at one’s disposal even one billion pounds, much less multiple billions. Yet the financial oligarchs crave more, and expect that it’s their prerogative to extract it from your nerve and sinew. If you’re not miserable, you’re not enriching them enough. Nowadays, the most obvious tactic for reclaiming this time comes from digital distraction on an employer’s time, but this is a pallid substitute for rich, deep, healing leisure.

Subsistence labourers have always known this, always felt this misery. As the regime of industrial and post-industrial capital has advanced and progressed, it has immiserated more and more of the populace. The once-secure middle class erodes day on day; home ownership (problematic as land ownership will always be) dwindles and disappears as one of the last bulwarks against predation from above gives way to the rentiers’ goal of eliminating the last trace of possible independence from their private taxation draws closer to realisation. ‘Wretched man that I am [ed: I’d say ‘Oh, the humanity I am!’] Who will rescue me from this body of death?’ Clue: it sure won’t be any of our current proliferation of self-interested billionaires.

Cory Doctorow constantly quotes Stein’s Law — “anything that can’t go on forever eventually stops” — perhaps hoping that by dint of repetition, the import of that maxim will at last sink in. Eventually, this ouroboros will be slain by government regulation (which is why the predators so dread regulation) or run out of tail to swallow (which is why they preach the false gospel of limitless growth, in the hope that the snake will provide a continuous diet of added length to consume).

To return to where I started: since the economic role of clergy is, to a great extent, symbolic (and I mean that in a very positive sense), one way we can push back on this matrix of extraction can involve recognising and encouraging a clerical vocation of leisure (for the benefit of our cures, not for self-interest, though some will of course abuse that opportunity). Unionise. Demand that real academic communities offer their teachers the time to ruminate, not just pump the human equivalent of AI slop into print month after month. Find ways to pay workers what their employers won’t. Unionise, again. Press for a diminished working week in the teeth of demands for greater productivity. Tax wealth. Tax surplus (as, for instance, vacant housing stock and vacant commercial property). Refuse to feel guilty for loafing. And for those who will, pray.

British Summer Time

I woke this morning at a self-congratulatory 6:30, delighted that I had gotten some extra sleep in the morning hours, and only somewhat chagrined when Radio 4 reminded me that it’s now British Summer Time, and I had lost the hour of sleep I had imagined I’d harvested. Got up slowly and ran, a decent pace apart from several pauses to rest body parts that spontaneously decided they wanted not to cooperate.

I remembered that I needed to print the tones for the Preface, and to find and print the Collect, and I printed some prayer cards for the Wholeness & Healing service (though Susan found the ones we had missed last week in a second, separate folder from the one with the orders of service). I was heading up to shower and dress at 8:45 when Margaret stopped me and asked what time it was. I estimated ‘between 8:30 and 9:00’, right on target to leave for church at 9:30 to do some vestry errands before the service. Margaret, just awake herself, answered ‘Cos my phone says it’s 9:45. I must have set it ahead, or maybe it didn’t…’ She didn’t need to continue — I realised that I had been looking at the clock radio to watch the time, and the clock radio doesn’t ahve an auto-update for time changes. It really was 9:45, and I was already 15 minutes behind schedule.

In a whirlwind of activity, I completed my dressing, gathered up my Sunday bag of service books, cincture, and various other impedimenta, and got to church in good time. The service went well, Margaret and I returned exhausted, and now I’m doing odds and ends in preparation for tonight’s Sacred Concert. My job will be to welcome people, offer a wee prayer, and introduce our organist; then after the performance, to greet the audience again, remind them that we’ll host a concert of and for young organists Saturday evening. And return home, weary and hungry and ready to start over tomorrow morning.

Distraction Update

I have indeed been running every morning; ‘running’, or going two miles at varying paces anyway. I haven’t taken a timed run in a long time, since that was both making me [more] miserable spiritually (the gains were a rush, but the experience of haunting competitive pressure was bitter) and was making my legs feel worse on subsequent days. That probably means added strength, but the sensation of stiffness, leadenness, knocked-back-ness following timed days was frustrating. Having written this out, I suppose I’ll begin taking intermittent timed runs again — especially since I registered and will be participating in the Bannister Community Mile, my first-ever ‘official’ timed running event. I estimated an 8:30 time, though I think it’s likely I’ll do better than that.

Parish work has been demanding for the past week or so, at or near full time. Preparing service sheets for Holy Week (and eventually, Easter) along with leading services and preaching, and working with wedding couples, staff meetings, and the accursed emails (not the ones from you, of course, but the cascades of emails…. But the PCC is making promising progress toward advertising our vacancy, and heaven permitting, we may have a Team Rector in a few months.

Fr Mark and Burnout

With a friendly mixture of applause and pushback, I want to flag up Fr Mark’s observations on burnout, and to add some complementary observations.

First and most importantly, whatever Mark and I agree or disagree about, we are on one page with regard to the desperately vital importance of supporting clergy in doing what they’re called to do — in most cases, that means providing spiritual and sacramental leadership for a given community. This is the sine qua non of the vocation, the thing that having a savvy churchwarden or a compassionate archdeacon or bishop can’t replace. This is what clergy [should be] [are] called and trained for. Not maintenance, bookkeeping, IT troubleshooting, or any of a platter of useful skills that other members of the community can help with.
Re: ‘decline’: I’d be interested to see a report on the correlation between ‘decline’ and the quality of the match between clergy and congregation. You can take a healthy, thriving tuna and put it on land, and it will decline — not cos it’s an unhealthy tuna nor because fresh air and earth are bad, but because they don’t belong to one another. Likewise some ‘failing’ or burned-out clergy are quite possibly misplaced, or given an impossible task (Mark’s two-congregation benefice separated by mountains and no public transport). I would wish that DDOs and bishops played a fuller role in match-making (and that DDOs and bishops were called to those roles with that in view, obvs; some are poor at this discernment, and they shouldn’t have that responsibility). A role for ecclesiastical headhunters.
It’s not the houses. Yes, they don’t always suit, and they should often be renovated for contemporary patterns of climatic and vocational needs, but living in the parish, in church housing, provides a deep sign of inhabiting the life of the vicar (or whatever other role). And plenty would envy clergy housing.
It’s not the buildings, either — or it shouldn’t be. PCCs and diocesan/national officers should be responsive to matters of upkeep and adequate renovation. If you don’t like a church, don’t take the call with a sledgehammer in your hand; these buildings are a precious gift from generations of the faithful, imbued with the hallowing prayers of thousands of parishioners over the years.
But yes, the parish system needs reinforcement and support. The relentless shuffle of clergy around a multi-point benefice, and Mother Agatha moving on and Fr Stavros arriving and Just Call Me Fred popping up once every six weeks does no good to a congregation that’s trying to pull itself together and grow.
Email. (I will say no more, except that it can take thirty minutes of scrolling and backtracking and reading follow-ups and new messages to figure out a problem that could have been resolved in five minutes of conversation.)
Isolation: as an introvert, isolation is not a big problem for me — but I combat the temptation to hunker down alone by spending as much time as I can in public, in clericals, greeting people and sipping coffee or a pint. The responsibilities of executive parish leadership are isolating (as is the role as repository for much non-public backstory for all the people); but there are other clergy and other professionals with similar roles. Your mileage, of course, will vary; horses for courses.
Families: Your fam didn’t fully volunteer for this, and few outside agencies will appreciate oddity of life in a clergy family or the stress that falls on spouses and (especially) children. The church needs to step up here as well.

There’s more. But I want to wind up, for now, by noting that the single greatest impediment to clergy flourishing is the demand on their time. The church needs clergy who are not running at full speed fifty hours (plus) a week. Spiritual leadership absolutely requires more leisure than neoliberal economic models will countenance. But that’s not the worst aspect of neoliberal policies; they bear down on most members of the congregation, too. If anyone wants a pastoral leader to help strengthen people out from political-economic immiseration, though, they will absolutely have to allow that leader slack time. With no carping.

Busy Annunciation

My miles this morning called back the good ol’ days of non-timed runs: a good pace, comfortable stretching and exercise, no desperate strain to go faster. Then coffee and fruit, shower and Morning Prayer for the Feast of the Annunciation, home for another cup and some parish duties, service booklet writing and editing, and a couple of phone appointments.

Whoops Monday

Sorry — I was alternately writing furiously for homilies for the regular Sunday service and also our Healing and Wholeness service (and our Lenten series), and enjoying the last few days of our visitors’ stay with us. We loved seeing them, and three talks is a lot, and I was utterly battered by the time I finished yesterday.

To catch up: my run on Saturday was okay, on Sunday was actually pretty good, but this morning I woke up with inflexible joints and stiff muscles. I walked and jogged through the two miles, but it was not a pleasant run. It was a pleasant walk, I suppose, but I was frustrated to not be running even gently. I’m not sure what to make of all this, except that I hope to have the self-control to take some timed runs that deliberately aim not at faster speeds, but at a controlled, gentle, steady pace.

A lot of parish work today, but most of it was desk work. I’ll put yesterday’s main homily below the fold; I think I won’t post the H&W homily, since there are a couple of angles that would be easy to take amiss, out of context.
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Fried Day

I walked my miles this morning. I mean, several times I tried jogging, but even the lightest push toward forward motion sent a message from my groin muscles saying ‘No’. Most of the day yesterday, and certainly this morning, my timed run yesterday cost me a lot of energy and some flexibility.

Coffee and fruit, cleaning up, Morning Prayer and an appointment, then home to any empty house (except for the dogs). Soup for lunch, work on homilies and Lenten lesson, and looking forward to seeing everyone back for dinner.

Two Homilies, One Service Book, One Run

Another best time for my morning run — though I was sure I’d fallen way behind my recent good times — takes my rolling average down to 17:52. I notice that theere’s a community mile run on 5 May in hoour of Roger Bannister; I’m thinking of giving that a go, since I have copious evidence that I’m capable of running a mile, whereas I have only tenuous evidence of having a fair shot at 5K, and 10K sounds like a pipe dream.

I’m preaching twice on Sunday again (next rota I have to work harder to avoid those days), and I need to hammer the Palm Sunday service book into shape. Those are my main tasks today, after my coffee and fruit, shower, and Morning Prayer. Margaret and I will stake out a place at R&R after Morning Prayer.

Plus, our dear visitors return from London this evening, so more delight again tonight.

[Later: Oh, and a talk on the Holy Week liturgies, too. Wheeee!]

Feast of Saint Joseph

Took a good non-timed run, coffee and hot breakfast, gave my homily a once-over and spotted a coiuple of places to expand ex tempore, then went in to Morning Prayer, Holy Communion for St Joseph, and home to a restful afternoon. I worked intermittently with the Palm Sunday liturgy and pondered several mysteries of the universe with my eyes drooping.

Busy, Then Quiet

The house was a veritable hive of activity this morning before 8:00, as first I ran my miles (good pace, physically comfortable), then Margaret made her way to a bus stop to catch a train to a teaching day in Nottingham, then our US visitors took a taxi to a train to the Big Smoke for the peak sight-seeing part of their trip to England. I had my coffee and fruit, cleaned up after everyone left, went to Morning Prayer and then a visit to R&R to do some office work. I stopped at the Cooperative for groceries, came home to the ladies, and spent the afternoon trying to concoct a sermon for tomorrow.…

Does Every Post Really Need a Title?

Two miles at a leisurely pace — my legs were positively leaden for the first mile or so, and when they started to move more freely my adductors were tight and resisted my hitting a good pace, or stretching out for longer strides. No worries: I pushed hard yesterday, one can expect a day-after effect. Coffee, fruit, shower, Morning Prayer, and we’ll see what else the day holds. PCC meeting in the evening.

Sunday in Lent Vac One

We had a wonderful first afternoon (and evening) together with Laura and Shannon and Ayres, and this morning I ran my two miles in an unpleasant personal best time that pulled my rolling average down to 18:08. It’ll be hard to push it below 18:00, but that’s going to happen eventually; for now, though, I’m very very glad to be making timed runs only once or twice a week.

Then coffee and fruit, a shower, and made my way to St Michael and All Angels for the 9:30 service, then to St Helen’s to give the post-service Lent ‘Spiritual Snack’ talk on Lenten Spirituality, then to the Nag’s Head for Sunday roast with Margaret and the Exeter (NH, USA) family, and now I am shedding vast waves of stress, sitting still on the couch and deliberately not doing anything useful, unless you think blogging is useful (in which case I’m doing only one useful thing).

I didn’t preach this morning (Fr Paul did), but this is Three Lent Year C and the readings include the Covenant Between the Parts, which was one of my favourite homilies from my last year at St Stephen’s House. I’ll tuck it in beneath the ‘More’ option so that uninterested readers don’t have to look.
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